stand like a tall tree...

in the last 10 years i have had a whole life makeover and went through so many changes...gotten married, had 3 kids, moved 3 times, left behind a small business, started another and closed it, became a volunteer firefighter, searching for a new career, started a new job, did a ton of house hunting, really strated my christian walk and so much more. every bit of it for the better and every bit worth it. with one more child on the way, finally getting planted in a house we love, and preparing to "hunker down" a little..we are ready to stand like a tall tree.

Getting closer...

a lot like this thing....

moving slow,

but can't be stopped easily.

sorta like my life sometime...

a big ole tangled mess a stuff.....

but i love it!

this could be the month...

that when one door is closed, another opens... that defines or defies me...
where i make a change or make a mistake.. where i begin a new goal or give up on one.. that i find my way, or lose my way.

i honestly am trusting in God and relying on a new found definition of faith to bring me to my knees and for the first time do what i'm told and not what i want. i want to be more than i am, i want to be more than i think i can, i want to pushed and not pulled. i want to be a leader not a chaser of a dream. i want to leave behind things that havent moved me forward and move forward with things that wont leave me behind. god is awesome. life should have momentum.

do you ever watch that show, intervention? i do, i think is great..i mean sometimes people need help realizing that they need help..its really easy to keep doin the wrong thing or goin in the wrong direction because you are already there and its familiar, even if its wrong for you, just because you know the variables, you know the circumstances, you know the results..its comfortable, so its easy. but making a commitment, changing, and taking the time to do what you need to do to get the results is worth it...i think God's doin an intervention on me...

a few pictures to look at....

build a ramp...

this project was so raw...i normally have like a thousand drawings and plans when i go into building something, but on the first day when i met brian there to get started i had nothing, but within two nites of work we had transitions and framework ready and done, then everything else feel into place..thanks to brian creed, ben smith, John Lander @ MTMF inc., the seeley's, and a quite a few others that pitched in when needed...

so many...

i just uploaded a ton of pics off my camera cause i been slack lately, but we had evans birthday and our family trip up to mountains on there and some other stuff, and all i can say is everyday i find more reasons to be a believer than ever, so many blessings in my life its unreal, so many things to be thankful for..this shot of the loaf of bread is more of an analogy to me..my wife made it and it was good, but its all about the daily bread.

so O.G. ...

read this interview..there is no defining mark gonzales, his contribution to skateboarding will probably go underappreciated for years to come..but it is undeniable that this man is responsible for so many people continuing to skate, loving skateboarding and refusing to let it die, i am one of those people. from the beginning he has been a total inspiration, influence and reason why i love skateboards. he may not have ever about killed himself on the mega ramp in front of millions of television viewers but his impact goes so far beyond that, unmeasurable and priceless asset to skateboarding. click brainwash victim! the best part is i remember reading this when it came out, the chavo part was my favorite....

one day..

one day rarely has enough hours in it. between sleeping, eating, driving, and other daily rituals, that only leaves about 12 hours to accomplish anything, and i usually work 8 of those hours. does a day not have enough hours or do i just have to much to think about and do. if i can do more than i normally would over the next month, i hope to be able to do less than i normally would in the following months. i dont neccessarily want more time to do more, i want more to do in less time thats more fun. one last thought, sometimes you dont know what you got till its gone. i know its insanely cliche', but thats what came out.

times are tuff...

not all flowers are pretty. everything can't always be everything you always wanted, but you have to make the best of your current situation or at least try to make do with it, because what you see in your head aint always whats best for the picture. what i need right now is support, not disappointment or subtle head shakin side to side...your either on the boat, or swimmin away, when its your boat you do what you want, this is my boat, i'll go down with it, or sail it to shore.

wow...

possibly the best picture i've ever taken, i woke up and went out on the balcony, 6:30ish, and this was the amazing sunrise i got, plus the guy walking on the shore. our creator is awesome.

3 thoughts...

make waves, they'll come back to you, so be sure they're good waves...
look up and pray, often, it definitely cant hurt things, if anything, it will only make them better...
just be happy.

the worst...

i could totally have the worst day ever, but when i get home and hear the words daddy, it all goes away, every worry, every problem...at least for a bit. i have 3 kids, and they always make my day, im sure they cant always tell, but they do. nothin beats bein a dad. tell yours you love him, no matter what.

small things...

it's all about the details, often overlooked, intricacies, that make the difference. thankfully there are people that don't mind taking care of the details that make a moment worth remembering. be that person, to someone.

sometimes...

there are days when i love how fast life moves, decisions, thoughts, interactions, everything linked together for a goal in your mind, preparations leading to actions and actions leading to realizations.

life can be so real sometimes,
and then there are days when i cant wait to be this guy.

tea, coffee ...

tea, coffee, beer, whatever it takes to get you out skatin is fine with me...

time flies, have fun, make it happen, be here now!

april 1978 ...

i was 6 years old, first grade, i got a yellow banana board with red wheels from sears, and rode up and down the driveway, this guy seems to be doin a hang ten front truck grind.

i dont think anyone even does this now?

innovator.

life...

ever feel like your living life inside a bubble?

me neither

now is the time.

people get ready.